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Jerome: His hands are
wandering over her body.

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Female voice: Oh, yes.

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She's enjoying it.

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Oh, yes.
Go on, tell me...

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everything. I want
to know everything.

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My God, she's got
a fantastic ass.

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What, nicer than that
lovely redhead's?

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Now he's pushing her
down on the bed.

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- Ah, yes.
- He's kissing her breasts.

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Ah, all gone.

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[gasping]

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What's the matter?
Why aren't--

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Dear Dick...

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I used to press my crotch

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into the belly
of my stuffed rhino

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in the family room of our
duplex in Cleveland, Ohio.

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I loved to hump him in front
of our sitter Karen Harris.

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I used to say
that Rhino was hungry

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and that I needed to feed him.

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Then Karen went away to college,

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and I didn't feel
like doing it anymore.

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Then I found Jesus.

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I was the only Jew at
St. Cletus Elementary School.

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I fell in love with Jesus

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because he looked
like a hot 1970s yogi

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with his man bun, his loincloth.

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I used to picture Him
climbing off of His crucifix,

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walking into my room

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to say hi with His
tears of blood.

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In high school
I wanted to fuck anybody,

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male or female.

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Nobody took me up on it.

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I had severe cystic acne,

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and I wore an enormous,

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vintage, smelly
motorcycle jacket.

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And I chain-smoked.

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[boy, girl grunting]

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In college I found a taker:

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Noah Nussbaum.

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Finally, someone I desired

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desiring me back

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was within the realm
of possibility.

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After we were done,

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I wanted to know
all the parts of me

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that he found beautiful.

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He said, "Your lips,
your eyes, your hair."

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As he listed off
these parts of me,

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my mind began to wander

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to those parts
that remained unmentioned:

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my nose, my bush, my tits.

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After college,
my best friend Liza and I

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wanted to fuck a rock star.

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We finally caught one.

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He took us back to his room
at the Chelsea Hotel.

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We told him we wanted to fuck
him as if we were one person:

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her body, my mind,

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a living representation

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of the Louise Bourgeois
sculpture The Couple.

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This is Louise Bourgeois.

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We wanted to act out
the Cyborgian split

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projected onto every woman
in this culture.

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You're weird.

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Weird girls.

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Ten years later, I met Sylvere.

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He was the first man I was with

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who didn't resent me
for being smart.

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Hey, I'm here.

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Sylvere: Hey, Chris.

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I'm in the bedroom.
Give me a sec.

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Maybe it was because he had
just published a book

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and everybody thought
he was going to be famous,

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or maybe because he was
so much older than me.

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We would meet up
once a week to have sex.

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I knew he was
fucking other people,

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but I was too obsessed
with him to care.

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- All right, come on in.
- Coming.

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Take off your clothes
and touch yourself.

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No.

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Boots on.

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He said what got him off most
was watching me get off.

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Nothing freaked him out.

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Smile at me.

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Now don't smile.

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After he watched me get off,

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we would eat clam soup
and talk about philosophy.

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He was one of the smartest
people I'd ever met.

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I mean, if you were
ambidextrous--

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And I loved seeing myself
through his eyes.

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A year after we met,

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I was diagnosed
with Crohn's disease,

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and I figured that that
was the end of us.

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Have some of this.

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But instead, he said
that we should get married

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so I could be on his
insurance plan.

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A year after that,
we stopped having kinky sex.

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And five years after that,

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we stopped having sex at all.

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Forgot what lust felt like...

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until I met you.

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I don't care how you see me.

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I don't care if you want me.

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It's better that you don't.

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It's enough that I want you.

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Sometimes, when I
walk down the street,

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I look into the faces
of every woman I pass,

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and I wonder what she sees.

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I wonder about the history
of her desires.

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Dear Dick...

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♪♪ [Woman singing in Spanish]

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Devon: Dear Dick...

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The way you moved...

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captivated me.

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You swaggered.

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You took your time like you knew

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the whole world
would wait for you.

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Hey. Nice to see you.

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I asked my parents

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for a pair of boots
just like yours,

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and they got them for me.

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We all pretended
we were friends,

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even though my grandparents
had all worked on your land,

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just like their parents had.

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♪♪[continues]

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I loved watching you play cowboy

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with all your women.

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Watching you, I knew

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I wanted to grow up
to be like you.

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The hand, not the waist.

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When my girl cousins
told me to act like a boy

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so that they could
practice kissing,

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I pretended I was you.

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I had girlfriends
from an early age.

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I was good at romantic gestures.

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I wrote poems
that made girls cry.

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Why are you doing this to me?

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Shh.

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Hey, Mom, I'm home.

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Hey, there, cariño.

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Mom, what's Dick doing here?

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I was just talking to him
about the ranch, Dolores.

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Shut the hell up.
My name's Devon.

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We don't talk like that
in this house.

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It's not ladylike.

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I'm not a lady!

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I was the first member
of the Buendia family

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to go to college.

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I was going to study
playwriting,

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but then I met Shirin.

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I was in love

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for the first time in my life.

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I couldn't even go to class.

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Shirin would practice
the cello every day

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for hours.

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♪♪

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[exhale]

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[no audible dialogue]

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I called my abuela

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to tell her that I'd
met someone new.

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By this point, everybody in my
family knew what that meant.

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She told me,"Mija,

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"it's better
if that person loves you

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just a little bit more
than you love them."

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Hmm.

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Shirin never told her family

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about anything at all.

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Then one day I bumped into her

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at a restaurant
having lunch with a boy.

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♪ Just pretend
I'm on a journey ♪

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♪ Well, I got no time
to tarry here ♪

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I need to talk to you.

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I'll talk to you later.

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Hey, dude. I'm Gabe.

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♪ And I ain't got time

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♪ To linger longer

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- Fucking weird.
- What is so weird?

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I'm not being crazy. I--

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We fought for days and days.

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you coming up to me
in the middle of--

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Then one morning she left me,

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and she told people we'd
never been together at all.

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I flunked out of school.

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I came back to Texas...

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to figure out who the hell
I should become.

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I wrote this edition
with a new one:

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Books and Pictures.

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This was to vent
and focus my anger,

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but I was saved. I know now

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that the only way
I'm going to get on TV

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is to make my own goddamn tapes

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and play them for myself,

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my sisters, my brothers.

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We will be seen,
and we will be heard.

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Dear Dick...

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I learned everything
I could about him.

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He was born on June 9,
1961, in Alberta.

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He was a child actor in Canada
before he came to the States.

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He married his "Family Ties"
costar Tracy Pollan

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on July 16, 1988.

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His middle initial
was actually A,

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but he didn't like the sound
of "Michael A. Fox."

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00:11:16,284 --> 00:11:18,373
Why did I love him so much?

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00:11:18,416 --> 00:11:19,983
Partly, I think, I was in love

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with his alter ego
Alex P. Keaton.

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It's kind of messed up,

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but something about the idea

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of a political conservative...

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I found that
really, really sexy.

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Maybe because
my other great love

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was my mother.

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She was a feminist.

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She and her friends
wanted to change the world.

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They were trying to get
Geraldine Ferraro elected

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as the first woman
vice-president.

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♪ There's a river somewhere

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♪ Flowing through the lives

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♪ Of everyone

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♪ And it flows
through the valleys ♪

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♪ And the mountains...

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My dad died when I was 4,

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and it was just the two of us.

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♪ There's a star in the sky

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I loved every part of her:

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her ears,

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her neck,

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and most of all her hands.

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They were so soft
and warm and smooshy.

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I used to beg her

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to chop off one of her hands
and give it to me

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so I could have it
all for myself.

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I followed her everywhere.

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I liked to watch her
do her nighttime things--

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put on lotion, floss--

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while she told me about her day.

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Then one night,
I noticed something:

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her tampon string.

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♪ There's a voice
from the past ♪

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Something in me
turned against her.

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I stopped following her around.

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I started hiding.

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Hey. Where's my
good night kiss?

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00:13:06,524 --> 00:13:07,743
Good night.

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I turned a closet
into my reading nook.

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I would get under
this soft blanket

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my grandmother
had knitted for me

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and read my Edward Eagar books

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and just kind of let my hand
go wherever it wanted.

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Reading meant touching myself,

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and touching myself
was something I did

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when I was reading.

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I didn't have a word for it.

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I didn't know it was this thing

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or something that you weren't
supposed to talk about.

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All I knew was it felt good.

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The day I first learned

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00:13:46,042 --> 00:13:48,566
what masturbation actually was,

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I didn't want to do it anymore.

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Naming it was literally

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the least sexy thing
I could imagine.

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00:13:53,484 --> 00:13:56,836
That's why I love
your work so much, Dick.

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You refuse to give
anything a name.

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00:14:00,883 --> 00:14:04,191
So you call it Untitled.

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00:14:04,234 --> 00:14:06,149
No, I don't call it anything.

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00:14:06,193 --> 00:14:08,673
When I first saw
your work, Dick,

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the word "art"
seemed so inadequate.

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This was something
much more ancient

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and unnamable.

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Beauty is one thing.

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Your work was sublime.

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It evoked in me a feeling
of boundlessness.

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it was fucking terrifying.

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When you invited me
to come curate with you...

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I was ready to dive
into that feeling.

273
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I would love to open
the new space

274
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with a Mickaline Thomas show.

275
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I only like her early stuff.

276
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How about a Doris Salcedo
retrospective?

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Young Jean Lee's
untitled feminist show.

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I'm still here,

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searching for something
you'll say yes to.

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Dear Dick...

281
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or should I say...

282
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Shall we go over your many
awards and accomplishments?

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You've made a career
moving boulders,

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cutting trenches in the desert,

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making art that reminds us

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of how precious Mother Earth
and her sacred resources are,

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while also reminding us

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of the size of your massive
steel-and-concrete cock.

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Your pieces cost millions
of dollars to make.

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00:16:01,264 --> 00:16:03,571
You employ hundreds
of men per project.

291
00:16:03,614 --> 00:16:06,269
You embody everything
anyone has ever wanted

292
00:16:06,313 --> 00:16:10,099
from a late 20th century
alpha male artist and scholar.

293
00:16:10,143 --> 00:16:14,756
You are a remote, mysterious,
unknowable cowboy.

294
00:16:14,799 --> 00:16:16,888
Art historians worship you.

295
00:16:16,932 --> 00:16:19,804
I know all this because
we had one of your books

296
00:16:19,848 --> 00:16:21,110
when I was a kid.

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00:16:23,417 --> 00:16:25,288
This was our living room.

298
00:16:26,724 --> 00:16:29,640
These were our
coffee table books.

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My favorite was
the one about you.

300
00:16:33,470 --> 00:16:35,777
This was the house
I grew up in in Santa Fe.

301
00:16:38,736 --> 00:16:40,434
This was my favorite doll.

302
00:16:40,477 --> 00:16:42,001
Her name was Stupid.

303
00:16:42,044 --> 00:16:43,437
Doesn't she look stupid?

304
00:16:45,308 --> 00:16:47,180
This is me and my dad.

305
00:16:47,223 --> 00:16:49,138
He was an expert on children,

306
00:16:49,182 --> 00:16:52,837
so he thought he was
allowed to touch me.

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00:16:52,881 --> 00:16:54,100
This is my mom.

308
00:16:58,017 --> 00:17:00,280
And this is the woman
he left my mom for.

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00:17:11,682 --> 00:17:13,858
This is the first time
I watched pornography.

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Check this out.

311
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My cousin Tara was visiting.

312
00:17:18,994 --> 00:17:21,170
Ohh! Ohh!

313
00:17:21,214 --> 00:17:24,130
I couldn't get it
out of my head.

314
00:17:24,173 --> 00:17:26,393
Oh, yeah. Ohh.

315
00:17:26,436 --> 00:17:28,047
[laughing]

316
00:17:28,090 --> 00:17:30,353
Fuck. Ohh!

317
00:17:30,397 --> 00:17:31,528
Ohh.

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00:17:31,572 --> 00:17:32,572
[laughing continues]

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00:17:38,405 --> 00:17:41,060
Dear Dick, I know you went
to Columbia at 15

320
00:17:41,103 --> 00:17:42,409
and I went to Columbia at 16,

321
00:17:42,452 --> 00:17:43,932
but it's a lot less common

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for people to do that
these days.

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00:17:46,282 --> 00:17:48,154
I was an art history major,

324
00:17:48,197 --> 00:17:50,721
and I saw a lot of naked women

325
00:17:50,765 --> 00:17:53,072
in my survey classes.

326
00:17:53,115 --> 00:17:55,422
There are 500 times
as many female nudes

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in art history textbooks, Dick,

328
00:17:57,424 --> 00:17:59,600
as there are female artists.

329
00:17:59,643 --> 00:18:01,950
In my Early Modernism class,

330
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we studied 19th century diagrams

331
00:18:03,647 --> 00:18:05,649
of the ideal breast shape.

332
00:18:05,693 --> 00:18:08,739
And the thought of that porn
still stuck in my head

333
00:18:08,783 --> 00:18:10,065
inspired my research
presentation

334
00:18:10,089 --> 00:18:11,742
at the end of the semester

335
00:18:11,786 --> 00:18:14,223
"The Morphology of the Breast
in Online Pornography."

336
00:18:17,966 --> 00:18:20,490
Then I turned my attention
to hardcore porn.

337
00:18:20,534 --> 00:18:23,885
I refused to discuss
its politics.

338
00:18:23,928 --> 00:18:26,975
I studied its shapes,
the colors,

339
00:18:27,018 --> 00:18:30,109
the forms, composition.

340
00:18:30,152 --> 00:18:31,545
For my undergraduate thesis,

341
00:18:31,588 --> 00:18:33,764
I wrote about what happens
to a woman's face

342
00:18:33,808 --> 00:18:37,116
when she sucks two cocks
at the same time.

343
00:18:37,159 --> 00:18:40,771
For my Ph.D.
I wrote about gaping.

344
00:18:40,815 --> 00:18:42,382
Gaping, in case you don't know,

345
00:18:42,425 --> 00:18:44,775
is when a group of men
fuck a woman in the asshole

346
00:18:44,819 --> 00:18:46,342
and then tape it open to see

347
00:18:46,386 --> 00:18:47,972
how wide it's gotten
from all the fucking.

348
00:18:47,996 --> 00:18:50,477
Sometimes they measure it.

349
00:18:50,520 --> 00:18:53,349
I studied all
the different iterations

350
00:18:53,393 --> 00:18:55,960
of this gaping hole.

351
00:18:59,573 --> 00:19:01,444
My professors
had some questions.

352
00:19:01,488 --> 00:19:06,188
Have you thought
about switching
to gender studies?

353
00:19:06,232 --> 00:19:07,972
I'm an art historian.

354
00:19:08,016 --> 00:19:10,453
I have no interest
in gender studies.

355
00:19:10,497 --> 00:19:11,976
Why would you ask me that?

356
00:19:13,761 --> 00:19:15,154
In the past three years,

357
00:19:15,197 --> 00:19:16,522
I've gotten two
postgraduate fellowships,

358
00:19:16,546 --> 00:19:18,157
an Outstanding
Dissertation Award,

359
00:19:18,200 --> 00:19:19,375
and a Guggenheim.

360
00:19:19,419 --> 00:19:20,855
I may be nowhere near you,

361
00:19:20,898 --> 00:19:22,726
but I am definitely
heading closer.

362
00:19:23,901 --> 00:19:25,207
Dear Dick,

363
00:19:25,251 --> 00:19:26,382
when I first read about you,

364
00:19:26,426 --> 00:19:28,297
I was confused.

365
00:19:28,341 --> 00:19:30,299
Who was this rich, famous person

366
00:19:30,343 --> 00:19:31,822
who got to make
whatever he wanted

367
00:19:31,866 --> 00:19:32,997
in the desert?

368
00:19:34,477 --> 00:19:36,349
Did he not know
how much I had suffered?

369
00:19:41,528 --> 00:19:43,051
What I mean to say is

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we should be able
to study beauty, too.

371
00:19:45,227 --> 00:19:48,709
We shouldn't have to be
gender studies majors.

372
00:19:48,752 --> 00:19:50,493
You've got 30 years on me, Dick,

373
00:19:50,537 --> 00:19:53,235
but you haven't made a piece
in nearly a decade.

374
00:19:53,279 --> 00:19:55,585
Your time is running out.

375
00:19:55,629 --> 00:19:57,021
Dear Dick...

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00:20:02,462 --> 00:20:04,333
♪♪[guitar]

377
00:21:10,965 --> 00:21:12,880
[laughter]